So while I am on this burnout leave, I am trying to get back to doing creative things that make me feel good. It's been a while since I've done anything crafty. I decided to tackle (slowly) my Ikea Forhoja side table in the kitchen. I bought it last year, and kept putting off painting and staining it. Last fall, my son decided to write in pen "Fish" all over one side about 4 times in huge letters while I was out and hubby was watching him. At first I was p-oed that he did that, but then I figured, he's practicing his spelling right? Lol. So that gave me good incentive to finally take care of the table! I started with sanding the top and sides, especially where the writing was. I chose a walnut colored oil stain from Minwax that I got from Canadian Tire for the top of the table to match my walnut cupboards. I stained the top with the oil based finish with just one coat. I didn't want it to be too dark. I used a regular paint brush and let it dry o...
I got 2 weeks off for sick leave. Within that 2 weeks, I continued to have chest pains and migraines. I felt like I lost all control of my body. And then there were two sleepless nights in a row. By the second night, I begged my husband to please go to the pharmacy and get me any sleeping pill that I could take with my antibiotics that my doctor had prescribed for my sinusitis. That night I took 2 pills, and still did not sleep. I cried on and off the entire night. I felt so tired, so broken, and my mind went to a dark place. I finally fell asleep sometime after 4 am and was then woken up by my son at 6 am. We had planned to go blueberry picking that day. I really didn't want to go, but Saturdays are the only days we as a family are all together. I took two Advils and some Tylenol and headed out the door. I smiled at my kids, and tried my best to have fun. But inside, I was tired, I felt like I had nothing left. When we finally came home, I tried to nap. Instead, I experienced so...